A new world

" Stars below and land above. A different, a new world. I am not loving it, its not awesome or horrible. Its just there - existing for itself - and thats it, thats perfect. Rain is liberating and clouds closer to heaven. And survival is - more. And delicious, authentic. An authentic life - not given easily. There is.."

I learnt not to expect and then see it being better. And tried too hard to get done some things while there but it just wouldnt happen. Realizing now that I so work like a machine, there is a step process. Just cannot perceive and simlutaneously analyize. Well, under the category of a weekend get-away it was more or less right up there (considering this perhaps is the only one). But it could have been a little more silent/quiet. Not at all to undermine the kind of company I was in. In daily life it sometimes becomes difficult to actually differentiate between two people you know. And two days in a different environment tell you all you can possibly comprehend in 42 hours about differences in personality of two people or seven.
Balance. Indeed. I dont know what Buddhism preaches? Shouldve found out. Atleast the idea behind the robes annd shaved heads which are fascinating to say the least. A monk and a prisnor are two roles I am ready to play, but I am afraid I cant do it for life, both will need ultimate commitment in opposite directions.
Desire. Cant deny. Peace . Trying too hard? Enjoyment. Not on the agenda.
Time is not even a dimension anymore. I think I can work without or this could be just something I said.
Well, I still smiled along the way, the felt that sensation I think is going to sort thingd out.
Progress Mr.Grewal.
Closer to the new world.