unchained melody

i am twenty and i finally feel, hah, that i need to be in control of whats happening or just let go.
I dont think i can do either and i am not okay with the ongoing battle to find a balance, the equalibrium.

and its all different things and many directions, until and unless you step out and above it all, and look beyond the clouds and see the sky, its one and its boundless and its whats life is and its what includes you and everyone and everything else.

and then once in a while i do things on impulse, and i love it, and i hate it, and then then i just let it be.
i wish the process wasnt so up and down.

i need to rise above, and i know i am not there, but when there are things around you which keep pulling you down, its frusterating, and those things or people are unavoidable, going by norms.
but when did i ever think i am going to be fine if i had follow, always.

evolve mr.grewal.