Reality check One Two Three...

Its the year 2008.

I am 21, and rapidly moving towards being 22, and it doesn't have any significance whatsoever.

I can/may graduate this April. Woohoo! But nothing exciting except some mental relief. The hope of a Masters, nice!

I am LCP of AIESEC Chandigarh, something I faintly dreamt of in August 2005. It's certainly different from being a VP, an ordinary way of life is no more an option, and the extraordinary way is not a cake-walk (like I might have thought at some point). It doesn't really matter how much time I have spent in AIESEC, its all new and hard. One day at a time, I say!

We hosted a National Conference! (I daresay successfully, not upto me). And we even won awards - even a big unexpected one! And Apurav made it to AIESEC in India MC! Picture perfect :)

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I spent two complete days at home this week, don't know after how long. And with very less thought. Almost incapable of thinking. Its only mom, dad & I, and with one of us not being themselves, not being normal, not being there, its the most empty feeling I have gone through. I cried for things to be normal, for the life that I (and I suppose a lot of us) take for granted. Don't know how its going to shape up even now. But at some level I have made my peace with the fact that its insignificant (worrying/thinking/etc). Its reality. It needs acceptance.

At some level, I understand everything is an illusion. Impermanence of the world provides me the most strength to be who I am. And Its working.

(Plus some random feel good text messages, shallow shallow dirty fellow, I know).